Day 101
General status update
Chemo Muse:
oh boy, did WE have a night – see below
Despair Demon: got
a brief look in as I crashed and wept this morning after a night of steroid
euphoria, but R gave me a cuddle and so he returned to his nest in the airing
cupboard. Actually, I think he’s getting quite comfortable in there now – it’s
roomy and VERY warm, and he’s made a comfy nest of towels.
Nausea demon:
weakening – he let me lie in until 6am this morning, and then we had
anti-emetic meds, tea and toast together.
Chemo Brian: he’s
getting very excited about attending the private view of the David Bowie
exhibition at the V&A with us on Friday. R and I are going to be having a rare day
out together - accompanied by all my invisible friends, obvs.
Matron Becky: she
has metamorphosed overnight into a figure of global significance who will Save the
World from Patriarchy – see below
PICC line (deceased): I’m
being haunted by a phantom PICC line - its ghost is hanging round my arm, and I
keep thinking it’s still in place. Can’t get used to the new freedom.
State of mind:
Boy, all these drugs are messing with my head – but at this stage of the chemo
cycle that is a far, far better thing than have the chemo drugs messing with my
stomach.
Anxiety level
(1-10): my
partially root-canalled tooth
twing(e)ing again this morning, so I’ll be popping into the dentist later on - need
I say more?
Hair:
is hoping to address its long-term self-esteem problems with the help of the
Mother Goddess – see below
Very, very late last night on Twitter.....
I am completely manic and off my head on the steroids - it's
like I'm POSSESSED. But in a good way. So strange.
2:58 AM - 20 Mar 13
Can't sleep, and soon either my brain is going to spontaneously
combust or I'm going to start talking to God, I reckon.
And
it'll be very interesting to hear what She thinks of Her new Pope, for a start.
@carolinefo
I'm here! I'm awake. I'm slightly drunk and I feel like an idiot who just
stepped onto court with Rafa Nadal. *waves bat*
3:13 AM - 20 Mar 13
@PaolaOeste
Excellent! I'm eating a Gü Key Lime pie, because The Steroids Want It. I may
have another one in a minute..
@carolinefo
The steroids are right. Limes prevented scurvy in generations of British
seamen. It is therefore MEDICINE. In whatever form.
@PaolaOeste
V.good point. I'd better have the second one, just to be absolutely sure of
preventing the sudden onset of scurvy during the night.
3:37 AM - 20 Mar 13 ·
@PaolaOeste
You can't be too careful in the circs - scurvy would delay my last dose of
chemo, and my oncologist would be FURIOUS.
3:38 AM - 20 Mar 13 ·
@carolinefo
COMPLETELY. Vit C is *so* important in cell structure that, frankly, I'm amazed Gü Key Lime pie isn't handed out to all women
@PaolaOeste
Yeah, I think we should suggest that to the government. Free Gü Key Lime Pie
for all women would be BIG vote winner.
3:51 AM - 20 Mar 13 ·
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@carolinefo
I am so bloody impressed, btw, by how you have actually managed to change stuff
through your blog. You're AMAZING.
3:45 AM - 20 Mar 13 ·
@carolinefo
Also, Matron Becky (?) she's basically Batman.
3:45 AM - 20 Mar 13 ·
@PaolaOeste
Yeah, she's FANTASTIC. I 'm hoping she'll adopt me. I'm older than her, but I
don't see why that should stand between us.
3:49 AM - 20 Mar 13 ·
@carolinefo
Matron Becky shall be made either New Pope or World Mum. Oh God. Just imagine,
2000 years of silly patriarchy aside, WORLD MUM.
3:56 AM - 20 Mar 13 ·
@PaolaOeste
That idea is just FANTASTIC. Matron Becky perfect for World Mum. World Mum
would wipe floor with ANY Pope.
3:59 AM - 20 Mar 13 ·
@carolinefo
I am actually hugging myself with glee. When World Mum comes to Popetown.
*rocks*
3:57 AM 4:00 AM - 20 Mar 13 ·
@carolinefo
*freaks out at the idea of World Mum* (I'm imagining my mum here) (aargh)
4:00 AM - 20 Mar 13
@PaolaOeste
Ah, but Matron Becky will be the ÜberMum - the Mother Goddess. She will not
tell you your hair looks bad.
4:01 AM - 20 Mar 13 ·
@carolinefo
*weeps* my crap, fine, unstyleable hair shall be accepted!
@PaolaOeste
Mine too! Mine Too! Even the chemo didn't want my hair..
4:06 AM - 20 Mar 13 ·
@carolinefo
I am basically *sucking* my fine hair into my head by willpower so yours will
stay. *does lemon face*
@PaolaOeste
that is very, very supportive of you. Still holding my breath in case it goes
after dose 6.
@carolinefo
I'm ready to build idols and make bonfires for World Mum Becky.
4:04 AM - 20 Mar 13 ·
@PaolaOeste
Yes!!! She Shall Rule!
4:06 AM - 20 Mar 13 · Details
@PaolaOeste
Now wondering how to explain disappearance of BOTH Gü Key Lime Pies to R
tomorrow. Will say Mother Goddess told me to do it.
4:05 AM - 20 Mar 13 ·
@carolinefo
But the Patriarchy would have had you utterly powerless. World Mum empowered
you to nourish yourself. NO FRICKIN CONTEST.
4:07 AM - 20 Mar 13
I think I might have to lie down now @PaolaOeste going a bit woozy xxx
4:14 AM - 20 Mar 13 ·
@carolinefo
Sleep well, darls. World Mum will take care of you. xx
4:15 AM - 20 Mar 13 ·
