General status update
FEC cycle 6, day 12
State of mind:
lachrymose
Today I just can’t stop crying, certainly not long enough to write
a proper blog post: it started earlier today at the Haven, when someone asked
me how I was, and has continued on and off ever since.
The post-chemo mental meltdown thus continues….
I am so sorry, Caroline. I was hoping you were going to skip this bit; not everyone suffers it. I made puddles. The sofa is leather, so I cried puddles.
ReplyDeleteIt all started with my sister saying she'd like to see me with a pretty scarf tied round my head. I stood there, kind of doddling back and forth and thought, oh yeah, well, I'd kind of like to not feel like I'm going to puke through my ears, I'm not all that into scarf art at the moment - and then I thought 'scarf art/barf art' - and totally lost it. I thought I was laughing. Wasn't.
Cried for hours.
But, Caroline, I didn't cry for days.
Hang on, hang on!
xxx Jen
Thanks to both of you for sharing that. It does seems like a somewhat normal reaction to months of stress, pain and agony, and perhaps relief that this major part of the treatment is over. Thinking of you, Caroline, and imagining the warm sun of Ayvalik on your face. Janet
ReplyDeleteThoughts and prayers for normalcy and recovery to arrive soon... and then swimming.
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